I KNOW, I know. Weight is only a number. The scale doesn't tell the whole story/show the whole picture. I KNOW! I also know that even the at my most wholistic-minded, I STILL get upset when my weight creeps up. And, the creep has creeped up HUGE.
Let me list the many frustrating parts of this reality:
1) My knowledge - I know better (than to allow myself to gain unnecessary, unhealthy weight).
2) My education/career field. HEALTH EDUCATION. EXERCISE SCIENCE.
3) I'm a certfied personal trainer. Hel-LOOOO!
4) Family history/traits: we are not small people and we are not without health-related "family history".
5) Reasons for gain: indulgent, voracious eating, along with the miserable pair of not-enough-physical-activity + general fatigue every day.
6) When I feel good and have time to exercise, some dumb excuse creeps into my mind.
7) When I have pain or fatigue, I get down because it hurts or takes too much energy to move.
8) I know I feel better after exercising - physically, mentally . . .
I remember when I was super frustrated that I was 175lbs. I was working out, eating well, and still thought I needed to lose weight. Now, at . . . oh my gosh, I am doing this publically . . . 194lbs (as of last night--highest that I've ever been) and weak . . . I look back and *wish* I were back at 175 and strong. Truthfully, if I were strong and fit, that number wouldn't be a big deal, considering that I'm 5'10". However, a glimpse in the mirror at my profile on Wednesday afternoon almost threw me into a bulimic tizzy.
Whoa, Nelly. Need some attainable goals, STAT!
Actually, I started last week with the goals . . . I've just not been posting blogs, what with my very little amount of exercise and very HIGH amount of time spent in the library, either doing homework or working (read: SICK OF SITTING AT THE COMPUTER).
Goals included, in order:
1) Get to bed around* 11:00pm. (I didn't say exactly 11 because I knew I would need a little bit of flex room. So far, since last Saturday or Sunday, I have met that goal (within 15-30 minutes). I see success in that because I'm not staying up until 12, 1, or even 2am<---SILLY.
2) Take my multi-vitamin in the morning with breakfast. I have oscillated back and forth with the whole "vitamin" concept (usually sticking with, "if I eat a balanced diet, I don't need supplementation). With all of the crap happening in out environment, along with further nutritional education, I have decided that SOME multi-vitamins are worth the cost (as far as health benefits).
3) Set alarm for 6:30-7am. Just start getting used to waking up regularly at an earlier time. Later, I would like to utilize this early-morning period for exercise (again); for now, attainable goals that are not overwhelming and are relatively easy to maintain is the key to success.
So, with that, I have reached some goals and am working to stick with them. I am allowing some flexibility, as I mentioned in the bedtime, to be sure that I don't "give up" because it's too hard.
After last night's fit with the fat (mostly the midsection, if you are interested, hahaha. TMI? Eh. Oh well.), I began today with adding more movement to my day. First of all, I woke up at 730am (see, flexibility - instead of 7am, slept extra 30 minutes). And by 8 had drank a glass of water and was ready to go out to walk/jog with the dog! However, the smoke in the air from the raging forest fires is really irritating to my through and eyes and gives me a headache. Road block? Tough. I am going to hurdle this obstacle! I chose, instead, to find a yoga routine on Netflix and set to stretching! 30 minutes later, I felt really good. Then, time for school, missed an earlier bus, so I started walking to the next bus stop . . . which turned into walking to 4 bus stops away from the one by my apartment, since the buses run every 10-or so minutes. After class, the smoke was still icky, so I didn't go out to the pool like I had wanted . . . instead, I put on some Hulu (watched House) and did some lower body+abs+stretching exercises. 10 more minutes. YAY.
Keep adding "10 more minutes". This body will change.
Oh - P.S. I also chatted today with a friend from home about fitness certifications, which got me stimulated to move. And I just read an email from Coach Julie Page, who NEVER fails to motivate and inspire.
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