STA-rug-lin!

Arright, folks.  Time for a kick in the keester!

Been UBER-tired lately and fightin' headaches.  Slept through parts of 2 classes this week (at home - battling headaches).  Not sure what in the world is up!

Anywhosen.

Today: WARM in Gainesville! Yippee!  Too bad I slept most of the morning away (did get 2 loads of laundry done.  Woopee!)   I bussed it to school, late for class #1.  Missed my friend's presentation. D'oh!  Sat in on another professoral candidate for UF - I was totally pumped by her research and was excited about her knowledge, as well as her ability to relay the information in a conversational manner.  Cool!  Classmate gave me some NSAIDs and I sat through 2nd class/lecture. 

Opted to walk home rather than take the bus, so I hoofed it the 2 miles from class to my apt and arrived sodden with perspiration but feeling somewhat better.  Roomie KA took my dog for a lil' joggy-poo and SAW AN ALLIGATOR! We did 10 minutes of pilates/abs when he got back.  Not much, but needed to do some core work - core strength and flexibility is a huge health indicator!!!



So, on a philisophical note, I am re-e-e-e-eeeeeeally strugglin' with focus.  I cannot even wrap my brain around all of the things that I want to learn about and pass along to others.  I am trying too hard to do too many things at once and all the while I become stagnated in doing NOTHING PRODUCTIVE!  Additionally, I don't know what I am going to do when I grow up.  There are so many directions that I would like to go - PhD school, move and practice and learn at several places around the country and world, and move to Cambridge, MN, to work at WBC with Total Wellness Coaching!!!!!  I don't know what I would call myself - a Health Coach? - and I don't know what to charge and what to specialize in . . . and I am TERRIFIED of NOT KNOWING ENOUGH/Coaching improperly/hurting someone.  I know that I know "stuff"...this is hard to explain.

I'm going to just put this out there - my 'epiphany' from the other day.

I think . . . that I am afraid to practice what I DO know . . . and, although I know that I can continue to learn via reading and seminars and workshops, etc, I feel as though I need to have a whole list of credentials behind my name to be legit.  Does that make sense?  Now, I did put into practice what I know at my last couple of jobs.  I am just TERRIFIED of letting people down/not staying focused/hurting someone.  UGH!  What angst!

Blah blah blah.  I am not tryin' to be a downer :)  I know that I am very blessed and that I have had a lot of reallyawesome opportunities - for which I am THANKFUL!  Just lettin' out a little steam.  And had to chronicle my daily dose of movement :-)

Thanks for listening.  Tune in next time for a more chipper chat! 
Tah tah.  Get movin'!