Strange intrapersonal battles today. Determined to express gratitude for the opportunity to walk the dogs in the sunshine and take part in another yoga sequence from the 30 for 30 challenge.
Guess whaaaat?! I skipped day 15. Yep. I went out of order. EEEEEEK. (I'm practicing showing compassion toward myself and practicing letting go of the need to 'do everything right' and 'do everything in order' and 'do everything efficiently'.) (Please know that I know I am not successful in any of the 'do' endeavors just mentioned. I struggle and strive each day and am hopeful I can use some coaching wisdom and experiences to recognize my own limits and be okay with those limits - sometimes the limit is only for the day or for a short season. Chill out, Nicole.) I completed Day 16: Express Vinyasa Practice and was absolutely challenged. Thankfully, the physical practice helped me 'get out of my head' and be more grounded.
May I indulge a bit and explain an interpersonal battle I am dealing with at present?
My brain and heart are seemingly at an impasse. As much as "I know", I'm repeatedly struggling to practice and be - may it be in nutrition, fitness, gratitude, spiritual growth, financial well-being, moderation (in any area!).
I feel some sort of need to be an expert and great role model in health, fitness, and wellness. Truly, I enjoy and am motivated by assisting other people in reaching their goals and improving their quality of life according to them. However, when it comes to my own 'plans' and 'goals' - I vacillate from wanting to commit to a specific physical activity plan (ex. training for a foot race or strength training X-number days per week to be able to complete a full-body pushup again someday sooner than later) to wanting to enjoy each day and move enough to maintain my weight & heart health and manage my mood. I vacillate from wanting to commit to a nutrition plan of counting calories and measuring/recording food to reach a particular body weight/size to wanting to eat what I want when I want with regard to, again, energy and mood and general health.
These are of course only two of the multiple domains of health and wellness. I often coach people who come to me with similar focus who end up working on incorporating more fun or spiritual practice or quiet time into their lives...and the rest begins to slowly balance out. My frustration: Why am I not practicing what I encourage others to practice if I believe in it?!?! This frustration and imbalance is not new to me (or anyone else, probably). Perhaps the people around me at home, at work, and socially help bring these issues to the forefront and I am working on noticing, confronting, feeling, and dealing with the experience.
By the way - I began the 30 for 30 challenge with some hesitation or resistance to remaining in savasana at the end of each practice. Isn't this a waste of time? or I am afraid I may fall asleep. or Couldn't I be doing more physical activity to help strengthen/improve flexibility and balance within my body? I continued to remind myself that rest is one of my values and priorities and the act of being at rest is as important for my body as my mind. So although my intrapersonal struggle lately has been battling the 'all or nothing' mentality, I can say with relative conviction that I want to continue to practice savasana at the end of each yoga sequence. My mind-body health depends on moments of rest.
@CoachBurow #yogaeveryday #30for30 #dynamicwellness #mindbodyhealth #yogachallenge #savasana
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